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In which I write 406 words but end up talking about nothing

posted 9/21/2008 · permalink · read the 0 comment(s) · add yours?

Except for the past few posts, it's been quite a while since I last updated here. I've turned a year older recently and though I'm still unclear on how those two fit together, I'm pretty sure that it's the combination that prompted me to start using this blog again.

Before the posts brought about by my E83008 excitement, the last entry I wrote here was over a year ago. If you view my archives, those posts reflected the crazy, down-up, back-forth limbo state I was in then. Although I updated the lj, it was mostly about the fannish things I was obsessing over at the moment. Which, to be frank, wasn't all that different from the entries I was posting here because I'm usually not an open-book, 'here's what's happening in my life' type of person/blogger. I've done it before but now it longer works for me most of the time.

And that leads to the question of why I'm still keeping both this blog and the lj afloat. I suppose I could list down the numerous little things that I like about each engine but I'd rather not (now). This, after all, wasn't the purpose of this entry. What's its purpose then, you ask?

When I started writing this particular entry, I was mostly thinking about the year that was and how even though lots of things have happened, I still feel that I haven't really changed at all. That was the starting point of this entry. However, as TPTB would have it, I ended up digressing and going off into tangents and molehills which I've turned into mountains. My life may be "neater" and more "stable" compared to a year ago but my thoughts, ideas, and everything else that makes up the I in me are all still jumbled and wibbley-wobbley. It may be incredibly scatterbrained but, in the end, that's how I roll. Whatever my points were, it's now lost in the maze of words and prose that I keep churning. It starts out as one thing, then slips into another thing, before going back and spinning into something else entirely. I realize that's what the magical edit button is for, but, for some reason, I want to keep whatever it is I've already written, logic and clarity be damned. To quote one of my all-time favorite children's books, it's the use of rhetoric to obscure a lack of content. Cest la vie!

Labels: life or something like it, random